JUST AN ORDINARY LOVE

My kind of  love isn’t that demanding

Not even an extra to the ordinary

Don’t get me wrong

Not your kind of ordinary

Even your extraordinary is no meet for my ordinary

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

SAVING COWARDICE…

SAVING COWARDICE….

SAVING COWARDICE…

I shouldn’t have left you there
I couldn’t have left you there
But I did
I’m sorry
That I did

I should’ve been your hero
Console you when he’s gone
Maybe I was
Until you realized I was gone
But I did
I’m sorry
That I did

Maybe you see me as the coward
Running from you
Maybe I see me as the hero
Saving myself from you
But I did
I’m sorry
That I did

I promised to be there for you
They say promises are to be broken
But if I made them
I can fix them
I will
Yes
That I will

But if you fall again
And I’m not there to hold u up
Look beside you
I might’ve fallen too
There
Would you hold me up too
Or would you stay till I’m up for you?

LIVING CORPSE…

LIVING CORPSE….

LIVING CORPSE…

      Let’s just pretend I was never there   
      Let’s just pretend I didn’t hear what you said    
      Cos if we’re gonna be real here   
      I could strangle you    
      Till I feel no pulse in your neck   

      Let’s just pretend I wasn’t there   
      Else you wouldn’t wish we ever met   
      Cos you wouldn’t live to regret it   
      You wouldn’t live to feel remorse   
      Not to think of pleading for your errors   
      Wanna know what I would do?   
      Why am I even asking    
      As if you have a say   
      I just shot you in my head   
      Yet you stand there feeling all so    alive    

      Yes… I’m smiling at you   
      But in that smile is a girl   
      Who just took a life   
      Your life   
      So stop living a lie   
      You’re no more alive   

      Look… I don’t hate you    
      It’s just a bit uncomfortable   
      Knowing your existence is a threat  
      To my utterly modest innocence and self   
      No hard feelings
      Wait… You’re dead… Can’t feel it
   

I SAY… GOD SAYS…

  

   [I say…]   
      No…
      You can’t shed off this stain  
      It’s feels so sticky   
      It’s feels so attached   
      So attached that I hardly feel this as stain   
      Shedding off this stain   
      Would be torture   
      Would be too much pain
   
      I’m ok the way I am  
      My body is used to it   
      Not more than it can’t    
      Leave me to live with it   
      For I have    
      Until you mentioned it
   
      They see my stain   
      They want me clean   
      I see their stain   
      Yet they don’t seem clean   
      For we all are not as clean as we seem   
      Only we are as clean as we see
   
     [pause….]
   
      I’m a mess   
      I’m sorry   
      Most of us are   
      But this really gets to me   
      Gets to every fibre of my being
   
      [God Says…]  
      I know your stains   
      I won’t let them stay
      That’s why I came
      That you would be saved   
      Believe you are 
      That’s all I ask
   
      [I say…]   
      I’ve abused your grace   
      Knelt too many times to pray   
      Only to ask that you forgive me   
      Yet you do that and other things   
      Over and over again   
      Like no one ever would
   
      [God says…] 
      I love you that’s why  
      There’s nowhere I’d rather be   
      Until you know what this means    
      To me   
      You’ll never know how much you     mean   
      To me

THIS PAGE…

      This spine’s weak cos you decided to
       leave
      Prologue lost it’s meaning 
      The day you chose me
      To read 
      To read what she’s written
       I thought it would be me
      Guess we were never on the same
       page 
   

      This page must go
      No it can’t stay
      ‘Twas never a collabo 
      So why keep it anyway
      Why keep you anyway
   

      Just when this book made a good
       read
      Just when I flipped to a page that
      would never end 
      With tears that never fall
      With tears that didn’t rub weakness in
my face
      But tears that confirmed I’m just
      human in this race
      You rob me of a good read
   

      Guess we were never on the same
      page
      Yes you know my storyline
      Yes you know what I intend to write
      But the moment you chose her to
      write
      I couldn’t recognize my own lines
   

      Yet I can’t start afresh
      No 
      I’d only cut off this page
      And lengthen the rest 
      So this spine regain it’s strength
   

      I wish this page makes a good item
      For a good read
      I thought it would be me 
      Writing as you read 
      But then again 
      Guess we were never on the same
      page

PICTURE THIS…

   

      Picture this
      Picture
      Picture this picture
      Before me
      Me before mirror
      Me before picture
      Picture this
   
      This picture I see
      This picture of me
      This picture none sees but me
      This picture
 
      I see a picture
      You see a picture
      I see the picture
      You see just a picture
     
This picture is me
Before me is me
Me in this mirror
Me in this picture
Picture in mirror
This mirror is me

LISTEN…

      I said 
   

      I understand
   

      I didn’t say 
   

      I agree
   

      I’ll agree if you listen
   

      Listen more than what you only hear me say
   

      Listen more to what I’m trying to say.